The light was too harsh. Even at 2 am, when the world slept outside, oblivious to
everything going on around him, that was the one thing Rahul noticed.
White, stark, bright light – illuminating even the tiniest of corners. Much like the last time he had been waiting in this space. No, not this. A similar space. He had decided never to go back there. And he hadn’t. He was hoping that would change the outcome this time. That it would make it different from what had happened the last time. He was hoping, that changing the place would ensure that his fate changed too. Although, it wasn’t merely the place that was now different.
White, stark, bright light – illuminating even the tiniest of corners. Much like the last time he had been waiting in this space. No, not this. A similar space. He had decided never to go back there. And he hadn’t. He was hoping that would change the outcome this time. That it would make it different from what had happened the last time. He was hoping, that changing the place would ensure that his fate changed too. Although, it wasn’t merely the place that was now different.
The nurse
coming out of the operation theatre, at a run, broke his reverie. Rahul stood
up to ask her how things were, inside. But before he could even manage an ‘excuse
me, sister,’ she had run past him in her hurry. Rahul swallowed the rising
panic in his throat and held on to the back of a plastic chair for support. The
chair was bolted to the floor. Hopefully, he thought, it would help to ground him too.
Rahul checked
his watch. It was almost an hour. Half an hour later than the last time. But then,
last time, there wasn’t much they could’ve done anyway. He had been told that. This
time though, the lateness of the time the doctors were taking, gave him hope, even
as it continued to worry him.
His phone
pinged. “Everything alright?” It was his sister’s message. She had had a baby
last month, and hadn’t been able to travel to be with him right now. But she
was his pillar of support. Always had been. Right from when she had almost
single-handedly raised him after their parents had died in a car crash when he
was still little. “Yes, so far.” He replied.
He would’ve loved to have had her around. Anyone, actually, to have just
someone around. He didn’t want to be alone. Not right now. Not when his
memories threatened to consume him.
Memories. Good
ones. Bad ones. More good ones. Just a year - that was all the time he had been married
to Aanya. Just a year. When Aanya had given him the amazing news that they were
going to become new parents! His lovely, beautiful Aanya, who had looked gorgeous
and radiant as she had carried their daughter for seven whole months. Seven months
that began with Aanya throwing up at all hours and that had ended in her
craving the wackiest of things – seriously, salted caramel brownies at 3 am? Seven
months when he had been too busy at work, too tied up to think of Aanya or her
comfort. Too busy to notice that her health had steadily deteriorated.
And then had
come the time when she had gone into labour. Prematurely. He hadn’t even been
there when his sister and her husband had rushed Aanya to the hospital. He had
arrived much later. When the doctors were already working on her behind the
ominous doors of an operation theatre. They would try to save both, they had
said. And then they had come out to tell him that the baby was long gone. Aanya,
he told them, Aanya! They had held
his hands. Nodded their heads sagely, and gone back in. But he had lost her
anyway. Both his lovely daughter and his beautiful, loving, warm-hearted wife. Lost.
In a single night.
That was two
years ago. He had thought he would never be able to live. Not without his wife.
And not with his guilt over not having been there for her. He had found it
difficult to even breathe, that first month. He had barely eaten anything. Hardly
made it to work. His friends had visited him less and less, until, one day, he
found himself awake in the small hours of the morning, eyeing the bottle of
sleeping pills on the counter in his bathroom. They were prescription tablets. Meant
to help him sleep. Fight his nightmares. But it was extremely tempting to end
the nightmare that was his life, in just one swallow. The end of all his
problems. The end to his loneliness.
He had woken
up in the ER, disoriented; throwing up the contents of his stomach. He had a
massive headache, and when he raised his hand to his head, he saw that it was
hooked to an IV.
And then the angel had walked into his life.
And then the angel had walked into his life.
“You need to
take it easy,” she had said, her voice dipped in honey, barely audible
through the hammering in his head.
“Where…who…”
he had stammered, trying to get up.
But she had
placed soft, firm hands on his shoulders, pushing him gently but resolutely
back on the bed. “Like I said,” she had smiled, “you need to relax.”
And then she
had told him how he had been found by his sister who had tried to get hold of
him on the phone and when he didn’t answer her for hours, which was very unlike
him, she had come over to his place and entered the house with her key. He had
been unconscious when the ambulance got there and had been so even in the ER
till they had finally managed to pump out the last of the poison from his stomach. His sister
had waited with him all along. She had left only an hour ago, and was expected
back any moment.
“Who are
you?” he had croaked. She was clearly a doctor. The white coat said as much. And
she confirmed. “I am Pooja, a resident here,” she said. Ah, so not a full-fledged
doctor yet, then. “And I am here to ensure that you leave from here, fine.”
She had
worked her magic on him. All the while he was in the hospital. And also after
he left. They never realised when they had fallen in love. Rahul had never
thought he could ever forget Aanya, that he would never be able to live without
her! And yet, here he was, loving it, because Pooja was here, in his life. She had
changed his life completely. And his thinking. And his outlook to life.
And then the
news had come. Pooja was going to give him the best gift of his life. They were
to become parents! And just like that Rahul had found his heart constricting
and everything going black!
It will be different. Pooja had assured him. We will be fine. She had said. But he
had found it very difficult to believe it. And yet, they had survived. The whole
nine months. Well, that was different, he had to admit. And then, right on time
– different again – Pooja had gone into labour. An almost normal delivery,
though, had turned into an emergency C section at the last minute; and here he
was – waiting in the harsh lights of the waiting room. Waiting for things to
change. For his life to change.
Waiting for things to go right this time. Hoping
that things go right this time.
Because, he
prayed, that if he got a chance to change things this time, he would do things
differently. He wasn’t able to be there for Aanya, but he won’t make that
mistake with Pooja and their baby. He would do things differently. He would do
things better.
And out of
the blue, something from a movie he had seen long back, came to him – from The
Lion King, his favourite movie when he had been a little child, mourning his
parents – the past can hurt. But the way I
see it, you can either run from it, or learn from it.
Rahul had
decided to learn. He had decided to do things differently. He was just waiting
to be given the chance.
“Mr. Khanna?”
Rahul looked
up to see a nurse, standing just outside the operation theatre, holding a
bundled baby in her arms.
“Come, meet
your son, Mr. Khanna. He is the most handsome baby I have ever seen.” She smiled,
as she held out his son to him.
She must
have said this to every father waiting out here, Rahul thought. But it didn’t matter.
Because she was holding out his son to him. That is all that mattered.
His son.
Rahul
cradled the baby in awkwardly. “Pooja…” he asked the nurse, afraid to know the answer. But she nodded reassuringly,
and said, “Your wife is doing fine. They have taken her to the recovery room. You can
see her in her room in a little while.”
“You heard
her?” Rahul whispered to his new born. “Mum’s fine, buddy! Mum’s fine,” he
said, cuddling him.
This is my first entry for Write Tribe's Festival of Words, June 2018.
Pic courtesy: Pexels, Write Tribe.
You can read my other entries for this festival here -
The Dream
About Time
Of Life Lessons and Listening to One's Heart
The Trip
The Dream
About Time
Of Life Lessons and Listening to One's Heart
The Trip
Heart warming. Could picturize each and every scenes in my head.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Sheethal
DeleteWhat a beautiful happy ending for Rahul and Pooja. I think I have something in my eye...
ReplyDeleteLoved it!
Aww...thank you so much!
DeleteBeautiful story. I loved the way you have created two parallel story lines.
ReplyDeleteThank you Sonia. Glad you like the story line
DeleteJust one word, beautifullll :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Vartika :)
DeleteBeautifully narrated. Enjoyed the story.
ReplyDeleteThank you Priya
DeleteLovely story. Loved the happy ending. Keep writing! #WriteBravely
ReplyDeleteThank you Mayura
DeleteThat's beautiful story about father's love. Good narration.
ReplyDeleteThat was a lovely tale and so glad things worked out fine in the end
ReplyDeleteThank you Akshata. Glad to know you liked the story
DeleteOh this was beautiful. The emotions, the rise and fall of panic, the flashback scenes, everything. If there is one thing I would have changed it would be the removal of references to his being raised by his sister after the parents' death. Didn't really gel with the rest of the story, but the pacing was pretty good throughout.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Shailaja. Great to get a feedback from you! Point noted, will bear in mind the next time onward
DeleteOh this was a roller coaster of emotions. It was subtle and beautiful. How do I put it? Like a winter day but comforting. Keep writing.
ReplyDeleteAww! Thank you so much Nabanita :)
DeleteOh I loved it Rashmi. You caught all the emotions so beautifully - the despair, the regret and yet the hope. And then the happy ending. Perfect.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Tulika :) I was beginning to miss you on my blog here. Glad you lied the story. And welcome back
DeleteI love a happy ending, Rashmi, but I loved even more the way you weaved this story.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Corinne! Means such a lot, coming from you :)
DeleteThe story was almost like reading a book for me. The happy ending made it worth for me. Undoubtedly, you are a good storyteller.
ReplyDeleteBut, I have 2 questions. If he was raised by his sister, shouldn't the sister be quite older than him to have a baby at the same time? It seems like a hospital and the story setting in India but how come he knew that he and Aanya were expecting a daughter? Another suggestion can be to keep the stories short for the Write Tribe festival of words because the reader is pressed for time wanting to read as many blogs as possible.
Thank you Anamika for taking the time to read and comment.
DeleteMaybe the sister is having a late baby? People do have babies later and later nowadays...in their early forties... But I get your point. Will bear it in mind for the next time.
Also, after the baby was born (stillborn, prematurely) that is when Rahul must have seen the baby.
About your suggestion to keep it short - point noted ma'am! Will keep it shorter from now on :)
Thanks a bunch for taking the time. Appreciate it!